My mother was always one to instill a sense of nobility and strength in my brothers and I, stressing that each choice has a consequence; something I imagine most parents must try to accomplish while raising their children. And while most may take these lessons to heart, there are those who are set to find everything out the hard way. I definitely fall into the latter. You see getting myself into trouble is something I’ve always been good at, and what makes things even worse is that when I find myself in those situations I’m the type of person to “double down” to try to get myself out of the hole I’ve dug.

Which leads me to the question; Have you ever been in a situation where sorry wasn’t enough?

Whether it be on the giving or receiving end, mistakes and/or acts of this magnitude are something not easily forgotten, or more importantly forgiven. Having been on both sides, while it is close, the “committing” end takes the cake for me. While being blindsided by someone definitely packs a punch, the guilt felt by causing so much pain can be enough to push something to the brink of existence, but at the same time is a necessary process causing reflection often resulting in self growth. We spend countless hours tossing and turning going over each second that led up to the incident, always trying to determining the exact moment where things went wrong, or rather what caused us to take a left instead of a right.

It’s times like this where we wish time machines actually did exist and in the past I’d be right there, riding bitch with Marty and Doc. But having had time to think about this issue, this time I’d have to pass. I’ve come to learn that making mistakes is a part of life that we all must go through and deal with and it’s these moments of pain, loss, and sadness that make us who we are. While we can never take back the mistakes we’ve made throughout our lives (as hard as we may try), we can better from them, and no I don’t mean in the sense of never making the same mistake twice, but rather looking inward and making a life change. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not stating that you can instantly find bliss and inner strength by realizing the underlying cause, because you’ll never get off the hook that easily and that’s not the point. The point is that as sorry and as sad as you may be in these instances, there is light (albeit a speck) at the end of the tunnel.

So I leave you with the following questions; Does causing the pain feel worse than receiving it? AND if you had the ability to reverse your life’s mistakes, would you?